Good day gone bad

This post is about yesterday, Sunday.

Woke up and was very hungry. The need to eat was first and foremost in my head. I can usually go at least an hour before I eat in the morning, but this day was different. I needed to eat. So I made up a simple smoothie:
I used my new Magic Bullet and put in 1/2 cucumber, large handful of spinach, some kale and the Chia fiber. It was refreshing and filling. Do not pay attention to the Margarita mix and the alcohol behind the smoothie. I did not put tequila in here, but hey, that's an idea....

So I drank my smoothie and went on with my day. I felt great. Not too many aches and pains from surgery, and my energy level felt pretty good, too. I headed out to get my car washed and to WalMart for a new bathroom scale and a few other things.

Almost done shopping and I'm getting very hungry. I'd probably been in the WM for a couple of hours and the hunger came on like wildfire. EAT! In the past, the first thing I grabbed to get rid of that awful(?) hunger feeling was processed carbs and sugars. Well, hey, they are everywhere and easy to purchase, you know? I grabbed my old binge buddy, chocolate-covered Hostess donuts. Oh man, I could eat those by the bagfuls, but I only bought the 6 pack of little donuts.

Once in the car, I got out my precious donuts. Opened the package and sniffed. Smelled off, but then I haven't had processed anything for about a month. I took a bite. Hmm. Something not right. Another bite (rest of the donut) and yuck. It tasted weird. Not the sugary sweetness, yumminess that I was expecting.

Maybe my taster was off, so I put in another whole donut in my mouth. Still yucky. Still hungry. Ate the 3rd donut. Now I'm getting sick. That fat lump in my belly is not feeling good. I threw away the rest of the donuts and stopped for sushi and seaweed salad instead. Ahhh, now that's FOOD!

Once I got home, I felt my body or rather my "being" being pulled towards eating. Like I was drawn to every food I could eat and eat it now. I was full from the donut blob and from the sushi/salad, but I still ate a chicken sandwich and soup at home for dinner a few hours later. Then still "hungry" I ate something else. It's like another person was inside my body telling my brain to eat when I wasn't hungry. I was disengaged from the whole thing. I knew I was full, but my brain kept telling me to eat.

So was it the sugar that started all that? I'm guessing yes. I didn't feel that way when I woke up, so it has to be the sugars. I am so convinced that sugar is a drug. I know that when I eat it, it's like I just continue to eat badly all day. Even if I eat something healthy during the day, I still keep bingeing until I am so uncomfortable I want to throw up. It's crazy and I hope I don't have many more of these days.