Today is better than yesterday

I've been waking up early this past week and you know why? I'm hungry! My empty tummy is telling me it needs to be fed.

So I'm out of bed and fed it. I had a little coffee w/milk because I still like my coffee in the morning. I fed my tummy some non-fat (no sugar) greek yogurt with a smashed up pear in it. Delicious and refreshing. I thought my tummy was full, but not sure. It's still hard to tell. I was also in a fair amount of pain this morning, so I took my liquid goodness and it took the edge off. I was feeling a big bloated by this point and not sure if it was the yogurt, the pear, the coffee or the medication. I sat on the couch and read my book and sipped my water.

Then my inspiriation came. Cindy called. She sounded so chipper and happy. I wanted to be that way, too! She asked me about what I had been eating/trying to eat and what juices I had made. Bingo! I needed some nutrients. We chatted a while and then I went and made a juice: I decided on some juice first, so I made the apple, carrot, beet, ginger juice. So yummy. I love that ginger!

A few hours later, I decided I wanted some real food in my little belly, so I decided to make me some potato soup. Hey, I can have canned cream soups, why not make my own and have it without any of the extras they put in there you know? Last I checked, I didn't need any emusifiers in my diet. So I microwaved a baked potato and let it cool. Meanwhile, I chopped up some spinach. I scooped out the potato guts and added the spinach to it. Smashed it up real good and added some low-fat milk, S&P, onion powder and garlic powder. Tasted it. Yum! Microwaved it and then started to eat it. I ate about half of my portion and felt full. About 2 hours later, I started hurting and I started to feel pain in my lower intestines. Oh no, could this be the dreaded dumping syndrome?

I thought if it was going to give me the dreaded dumping syndrome, well so be it. Rather have that from food choices than a processed sugar dump. I think I was experiencing the carbohydrate dump, so I decided to take a nap. Well, whatever it was was over by the time I woke up 2 hours later. I guess fresh potatoes are off the menu for now.

After my nap, I had a sugar-free jello and some water. I'm kind of afraid to eat now. It's so hard for me to tell the difference between the pain and hunger. It makes me feel so out of touch with my body. I'm going to keep taking my liquid pain meds regularly to see if that makes me feel more in touch with the hunger. Does that make sense? I have to rule one out before I can concentrate on the other.

I am still trying to figure out feeding times. I don't want to put myself on a "schedule" but I need to be reminded to eat every 3-4 hours right now. I'm finding I don't eat and I don't want my body to suffer because I'm absent-minded. I think I need a wrist watch with a reminder on it or something.

Off to find something to EAT. I know the feeling in my belly now has to be hunger. I haven't eaten anything since the jello at 7:30pm.

Today was a better day than yesterday. I accept that now.