I woke up in a weird mood today. At first, I couldn't tell what it was. I got my cuppa and went out to the patio where John was already having his cuppa, a cig and reading the paper. I sat down, said "Good Morning" and watched as he read the paper. No conversation, just reading and then it hit me. I was angry. Not at John. I couldn't tell WHAT I was angry at or with or whatever! John and I have been married for almost 22 years and he knows when I get in a "mood", he just lets me be. That was a very good idea today.
After a bit, I realied I wasn't really angry at all, I was irritated. To me, there was a difference. I didn't want to yell or scream or throw things, I just wanted to be left alone to deal with this indifference I was feeling inside. I warned Tony that I was irritated today and he said "at what?" and I said I don't know. He says, "You know, you may be detoxing." OMG! That's it!!
After he said that and I let it soak in I actually felt a little better. I had a name for how I felt. I've been through detox before when I was on a diet and I stuck to it, but at that time, I didn't realize my feelings were because my body was changing and clearing out crap, and with the crap, go those feelings associated with the crap.
So, I let my body do its thing, getting rid of old waste and old feelings. I just let them flow. Let them out. I didn't like it one bit, but it has to be done. Thank god I have an astute kid and that my memory actually remembers bits and pieces of things. I remember reading about detoxing way back when I started juicing and Cindy and I discussed it. Years ago, I would've been on some diet doing really well and these same feelings would come up and I wouldn't know what to do with them so I'd get frustrated and eat. And then eat some more to cover those feelings. What a cycle!
I did a little retail therapy today because I needed to get out of the house. I made tilapia and zucchini for dinner and I feel terrific. I'm pretty sure part of my "mood" today was I needed nourishment in the form of protein but I didn't realize it at the time. I learn something new every single day.
I am so thankful for my insightful family and friends. I need them and love them to bits.
Down to 255 today. Half way through the 50's already!
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so so so happy for you (and YEAH for kids like Tony!!!)
ReplyDeleteI realized a day or two ago I was detoxing BAD and it's such a big relief to figure that out and just the day BE, instead of fighting it!
Deb!!! I am so happy for you and proud of what you are learning and accomplishing!
WOO HOO
xoxoxox
Glad Tony helped you figure it out, though I'm still not sure about detoxing and how it affects one's moods.
ReplyDeleteYay for you for getting out, getting a change of scenery, and getting a dose of retail therapy.
BTW, I bet the banana didn't agree with you because it acted like a sponge, soaking up liquid, which your new tummy didn't like.
And lastly, your redecoration on your blog looks fabulous.
hang in there!! I remember when I was doingf the atkins diets and I was litterly climbing out of my skin for carbs..I was told to get some chromium something I can't remember, but I did and took it for 3 days, then I was fine..but I tell ya, quitting smoking is easier than staying on track with an eating plan!! AT least for me. I am happy to see you have a good family support system in place!! Keep it up!
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