I am feeling pooky today. You know the feeling, just "eh". Actually, my stomach is icky and that makes me feel icky. I thought I'd feed it something new today: egg salad. This was a menu suggestion the last time I went to the doctor. I tried it and now I feel icky. Why oh why? I am so tired of feeling icky I don't even want to eat anymore. I'm tired of trying new things to eat. I've even gone back to what made me feel ok things to eat and I feel icky. I'm so fucking tired of feeling icky!!!!!
I sip water all day. I get down maybe 2 protein drinks a day, but I want to EAT SOMETHING and nothing feels good in my pouch. Nothing. I feel so icky that I can't even think of a juice or smoothie that will make me feel good. I mean, I know which ones make me feel good, but I feel so bad I don't even want to make them. I'm afraid they'll make me feel icky, too. Why wouldn't they? Everything else does.
The scale said 250.0 this morning. I know it's probably because I'm not eating very much. I just want to cry. I knew this wouldn't be easy, but this sucks! How am I supposed to lose weight if I can't eat? My body thinks I'm starving it and it's holding on to whatever it can to survive.
I'm going to go cry for awhile and then call the doctor.
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What you are describing sounds so hard and so frustrating. With any recovery and new lifestyle there is going to be some really bad days.
ReplyDeleteYou've been doing great. Try to keep your mind on how far you've come already and all the progress you've made.
I'm very proud of how much effort you are investing in your health. Good for you.
I am so sorry D!!!! You are doing great, no matter how you are feeling!
ReplyDeletebig big hugs chica!!