Monday, October 25, 2010
Feeling blue?
Monday, October 11, 2010
Weekend
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Back in the Saddle
Monday, July 12, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
Food Confessions
Friday, April 9, 2010
Testing the limits?
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(") (") Debbie
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Feeling the difference
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Downward trend??
It's been so long since I've lost a significant amount of weight. I'm down to 204. I can hardly believe that the next 5 pounds will put me under 200. Wow! I haven't been under 200 in over 22 years.
A friend of mine told me that since I wasn't losing, I needed to shock/trick my body into losing weight again. So I ate and ate and ate. Sometimes I overate. I did that for a week. I didn't like it, but I did it. Then this past week, I cut back. Waaay back. Back to eating until ALMOST full. Drinking more liquids. Eating only when hungry. The normal things I should do and I guess it worked. Hooray!
I've been thinking a lot about exercise these days. No, I haven't done anything yet, but I think about it a lot! I've been thinking of walking to work a couple of times a week. It's only a mile and a half from home to work, so why not? Once the weather warms up a little bit in the mornings, I'm on that idea like the stink on limburger. I know exercising will get more of the weight off, too.
I'm getting pretty squishy in areas I don't want to be squishy. My upper arms. My belly. My thighs. I'm hoping the skin isn't permanently stretched in those areas because I don't want saggy skin. That's yuckier than fat, in my opinion.
This picture is from this morning at work. I had my coworker take a picture of my shoes for my daily shoe post on Facebook and she decided to take this picture, too. I think I'm looking pretty decent. I'm happy with my body, and really that's all that matters, right? Well, kinda. I was ok with my body when I was 290, too. I've always been comfortable in my own skin. I just need to be healthier now. Too many family diseases, specifically cardiovascular ones, and I don't want to tempt fate any more than history gives me. I figure the healther I am, the better I can fight whatever comes my way.
So yeah, I'm down 5 pounds. That makes me happy. VERY happy!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Learning Patience
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(") (") Debbie
Monday, February 22, 2010
Waking Up
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Stuck Again
Monday, February 1, 2010
It's Been Awhile
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Thrown for a loop yet again, but I'm OK
Yesterday morning, I'm eating my oatmeal out on the back patio and John is reading his newspaper. I mention that, even though it's not trash day, I weighed that morning and oh-my-god I'm down to 209. I'm excited, you know? Guess what he said? Nothing. He said nothing. He half-smiles and nods and goes back to his paper.
I know, I know, guys get into their caves and don't like to be bothered when they're in there, but I was just so excited, you know? After he said NOTHING, I really wanted to lash out and yell and tell him what a shithead he was (is), but that wouldn't have solved anything but let the neighbors know our business. So I went up to the craft room and stayed there all day. Oh, I'm not letting this slide under the carpet, no way. He's going to hear how he hurt my feelings, that's for sure.
After thinking about it yesterday and today, I'm glad I'm fairly centered and realize that I'm losing weight for ME, not for him or anyone else. I just want to know how hard it can be to say, "gee, you look good today" or "I notice how much thinner you look" or something like that. ANYthing! Hell, my coworkers notice every day. My acupuncturist even tells me he can see the difference. He calls me the incredible shrinking woman! My husband? No words.
This whole situation is nothing new. We've been married for 22 years and I've been feeling left out for a long time. We've discussed similar situations and things change for a short time and then back to what it is. I can't help but take it personally. What person doesn't like to hear personal conversation? I get football, baseball or scouts. Whoopie. I just feel like we're roommates. Sad.
I do fill my life with things that make me happy. I get to knit night every Tuesday. I go out with the girls for wine, food, movies or fun. I have great relationships at work with my work family. I know my relationship with my husband is not right, but it's always been that way and I figure it always will be. If only one person wants to change, it's hard to keep trying when it's a one way street, you know?
I didn't mean for this to be a husband-bashing post. Not at all. I think where I'm going is, that with the weight loss, I'm feeling my feelings. REALLY feeling them and I feel alone. Alone is good sometimes, but not all the time. I'm just afraid if things keep going as they are now, that things will change, and not in a good or planned way. Maybe, just maybe, he'll read this post and learn something.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Homemade Nut Butter
Friday, January 1, 2010
Fooooood
I've been doing a lot of eating these past few weeks. Even some secret eating. Not good. But now that that confession has been said and lesson learned, let's carry on, shall we?
I've been craving sweets lately. Not necessarily candy (I won't eat that), but sweet things, yogurt-covered pretzels, commercial granola bars, oatmeal raisin cookies. I have to nip that in the bud. No more of that, but I can't cut out sweet stuff entirely.
I'm reading about low-glycemic index foods and it seems like this could work for me. I combine low GI foods with a little bit of the higher GI foods and my blood sugar won't spike and I won't fall asleep when my body "dumps" the sugar. I'm giving that a go.
I credit Cindy with informing me about this. Cindy has been my go-to food person ever since I decided to go ahead with the gastric bypass surgery. She helped me plan out my juices, smoothies and foods as I went from each new eating level after surgery. A tremendous help! I credit her with much of my success.
So now that I'm able to eat "normal" foods, I'm finding that I'm slipping back into my old habits: snacking on high calorie foods (albeit smaller portions) and snacking all day long. I am limited, however, by the size of my stomach, so I can't eat mass quantities, but I can still graze, and graze I do. At one point last night, I realized I was feeling somewhat ill, and thought, "why do I eat all this crap? Do I do it to make myself sick? Is it so I FEEL?" I don't know and I didn't take the time to explore that last night, but I did stop the eating.
When I woke this morning, I was not hungry and I didn't eat until 1pm. I'm getting back to basics yet again (I have a feeling this is a lifetime process) and listening to my physical body and will only feed it when it is actually hungry. I've had to do this numerous times since surgery in July, but hey, it's over 50 years of bad eating I'm trying to overcome, so I'm giving myself a tiny little break.
So back to the food. When I was hungry, I looked through my food blog feed list and voila! I found the perfect recipe for today. It's Whole Wheat Pumpkin Pancakes. I did make a few changes: I didn't have any almond milk left, so I used my pumpkin soy milk instead. I was also out of almond butter (must make some) so I used my peanut butter (ground peanuts only). I had some mini chocolate chips in the baking cupboard so I used those. Can you say YUM?!! John loved them. He had 3 pancakes and I had my one pancake. I'm totally satisfied!
I'm going to start sharing more food blogs and recipes that I find and use. It'll help me later and heck, you might enjoy it as well.